Still haven’t found what I’m looking for

H OW do you deal with the mundane? I’m not very good at it. I think I’m much better at it than I was, but I’ll be honest and say in recent days, I’ve been feeling very restless. (Pardon the sobriety, it’s necessary.)

Perhaps it’s the recording, the fact that it’s stretching us and taking longer than I had hoped. Perhaps it’s the day-to-day, which is always busy but the scenery is familiar. Perhaps it’s just a sense that there has got to be something more.

Surely there has to be something more?

I love u2’s iconic song I Still Haven’t Found What I’m Looking For… I think it holds more weight now with the band than it did when they first wrote it.

The collective stadium chorus in Cape Town was a memorable moment in that concert, and I remember Bono taking out his in-ears, eyes closed, listening to some 70000 voices… and after the chorus refrain, saying “thank you”. It was a sincere thank you, almost one of relief.

The video above was from when U2 were inducted into the Rock ‘n Roll Hall of Fame by Bruce Springsteen. I discovered this video recently, and it’s given me hope. I guess it’s the idea that if a bunch of old geezers can sing this song with fresh gusto and feeling means that it is still possible to not lose the passion for searching after something more in one’s later years.

What I like about the lyrical content is the sense of exploration, the feeling of a free spirit – that there has to be more, there must be greater things on the horizon, there must be more to this life we know…

There’s been much speculation around the lyrics in Christian circles… with conservatives condemning the sense of doubt  in the lyrics when it comes to the band members’ professed faith.

I can’t speak for Bono and U2. My experience has been that merely knowing Jesus doesn’t make life all hunky dory. Even the devil knows Jesus…

Life with Jesus is a progression, an unfolding story. There have to be new horizons in a relationship for it not to go stale… like you don’t get married and have the same relationship through years of babies, home life, careers, etc.

But I’m not blind to the realities of our carnality. I’ve heard it said on many occasions that as you get older, you get more “stuck in your ways”. It’s as if the quest for answers tires us out to the point that we settle on the status quo.

And yet, for me, there was something novel about seeing a wrinkled Bono belting out the words of I Still Haven’t Found What I’m Looking For with the same sense of longing as if he were in his early 20s.

U2For many on the planet, much of life is worked out in the mundane. The plod. The grind. How does one come to grips with the mundane? How do you survive the grind that wears down the free spirit in all of us?

I think that the answers are deeply spiritual. They’re resolved in the adventure of shared life, of stepping out on water, of having courage in those defining moments where fear is very real.

Above all though, hope is what keeps the heart fresh. Hope for something more. I love Bono’s parting lyrics in the video above. “I’m not a boy, no I’m a man… and I believe in a Promised Land.” That sentiment makes me feel like I’m not alone, and thus gives me hope.

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